This letter to my daughter was written back in 2018 after some pretty big life changes. I didn’t want her to feel forgotten or left out of the major events that were happening and the time that I was having to take away from her to help her new siblings.
We’ve been going through so much lately and I was totally overwhelmed with emotion one night thinking about how the changes in our lives must feel for my beautiful girl.
I couldn’t help but think about how my life was when it was just me and my big girl. I’m so proud of the young lady she is growing into and I pray every day that she continues to grow so strong, but that she also takes her time to do it!
With adding so many more kiddos to the family, I sometimes worry that she feels like I am not as available to her as I once was and it breaks my heart. Becoming a Mama and being her Mama is my most treasured gift of all!
I decided to put pen to paper and write a letter to my 10-year old daughter to let her know how much I think about her and how much I love her!
A Letter to My Daughter
My Beautiful Big Girl,
I blinked and I became a mom.
I blinked and you were one and your head full of brown hair and your little button nose was the cutest thing I’d ever seen. I couldn’t imagine being filled with more joy.
I blinked and you were going off to pre-k. You held your head high with confidence as you trekked onward toward this new adventure.
I blinked and you were a big sister to a little girl who came too soon. You understood as I stared at her as she slept for hours just to make sure she kept breathing.
I blinked and you were in 1st grade and you had your first crush. You could even ride the big kid rides at the county fair.
I blinked and we hit the terrible twos again with number two. You became so independent and funny. How could I possibly be filled with more joy?
I blinked and our family would become 5. A new curly haired brunette joined dad’s gang of girls. You started becoming the helper in the family.
I blinked and you were in third grade. You started making your lunches in the morning and loved everything about school. Your 4 year old sister wanted so badly to go to school too. #3 turned 1.
I blinked and there were 4 of you watching my every move. Your grateful heart and sweet innocence are your most endearing qualities.
I blinked and you became 10. How did that happen already? My beautiful bundle of joy has become a determined and caring big girl.
I blinked and my job was gone. A casualty of that last pregnancy that I welcomed in stride. You worry that things are not going to be okay. When did you become old enough to understand hardship?
I blinked and another school year has come and gone. #3 is turning two. #2 is becoming a kindergartner and #4 is almost 5 months old. You change diapers and have crushes on boys. You love to read and see the beauty in everything.
I blinked and I tried to remember what it was like when it was just me and you and the joy I had that was enough for a lifetime.
I blinked to hold back the tears as I tried to remember each memory.
I blinked and I remember that there are still more memories to be made and four lifetimes of joy that I’ve been given.
This post originally appeared on Our Family Code on July 10, 2018.